THOUGHT // Good & Bad

why is it that when things are good it seems to happen quickly, you don't seem to get enough and when things are bad it feels like it goes on forever. slow motion, stuck on pause or even rewind???

THOUGHT // Crazy?

Lately I've been thinking -  am I normal or crazy?   I'm pretty sure that if I asked my husband he would respond that I'm crazy.  I feel bipolar some days. I'll be perfectly happy one moment and then the next I'll feel sad and hopeless. Is it normal for me to be feeling this way? How long is it going to last? I just want to feel happy again.

If I were to ask myself that question I too would respond that I'm crazy. There's just been so much change. Too many unknowns. I certainly don't  feel normal. I feel sad, angry, depressed, scared, tired ...

I know that in the end it will all be okay, it will get better, it will get easier. At least I keep telling myself that.

I know my life, as uncertain as things seem, is better than many. Things could be much worse. Things have been worse.

Maybe I need to start a gratitude journal...

I'll start small and hopefully I can dig myself out of the black hole I feel like I'm currently in.

Today I am thankful  that my family is healthy.