Wednesday, August 29, 2012

THOUGHT // Good & Bad

why is it that when things are good it seems to happen quickly, you don't seem to get enough and when things are bad it feels like it goes on forever. slow motion, stuck on pause or even rewind???

Friday, August 24, 2012

1000 sq ft

After stressing about where to live/rent we've decided to temporarily move into an apartment and then look to buy a place.  Buy a place??? What??? Yes, I know it seems crazy.  Why would we do that if I don't even want to move down to OC.  Well, there are a few reasons to buy.

  1. It's a great time to buy. House prices are still pretty low and if we find the right place it could be a good investment for us. 
  2. Interest rates are still really low so a mortgage payment is close to what a rental payment would be.
  3. It can be a project for me/us to work on. With no friends I think I could use the distraction.  

More to come on the 1000 sq feet and how we will fit our life into a small space.  I'm thinking it might be nice to not have so much to clean.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

THOUGHT // Crazy?


Lately I've been thinking -  am I normal or crazy?   I'm pretty sure that if I asked my husband he would respond that I'm crazy.  I feel bipolar some days. I'll be perfectly happy one moment and then the next I'll feel sad and hopeless. Is it normal for me to be feeling this way? How long is it going to last? I just want to feel happy again.

If I were to ask myself that question I too would respond that I'm crazy. There's just been so much change. Too many unknowns. I certainly don't  feel normal. I feel sad, angry, depressed, scared, tired ...

I know that in the end it will all be okay, it will get better, it will get easier. At least I keep telling myself that.

I know my life, as uncertain as things seem, is better than many. Things could be much worse. Things have been worse.

Maybe I need to start a gratitude journal...

I'll start small and hopefully I can dig myself out of the black hole I feel like I'm currently in.

Today I am thankful  that my family is healthy.