As we are still trying to get settled after the move South and look for a new routine, I realize that in order to have the life that I wish to lead I must choose to live a life of uncertainty. It is taking an alternative path versus the conventional route of a person who chooses the security of "the known" and who makes decisions based solely on logic. I am a very logical person and don't do well with "unknowns." This will be challenging for me to do.
Back when I was in college I took a personality test called "The Keirsey Temperament Sorter." The test told me I was an ISFJ. According to the book, Please Understand Me: Character & Temperament Types by David Keirsey and Marilyn Bates, six out of every one hundred people are ISFJ's. An ISFJ's primary desire is to service and to minister needs. They carry a sense of history and continuity with past events and relationships. The analysis goes on to say that ISFJ's are super-dependable and seldom are happy working in situations where rules are constantly changing... See, there it said it. I don't do well with change!!!! Since it's been quite a while since I took the test I thought it might be interesting to take the test again. Is it possible that my personality could have evolved or dare I use the word "change"? With the advancement of the Internet, they now offer the test online on their website: Personality Test - Keirsey Temperament. So, I took the test and I have changed. Ever so slightly but I have changed. I am now an ISTJ (Inspector).
Although I dislike change, I am committed to being "happy" even with so much uncertainty. I don't really like what I've been dealt but I do have a choice in how I deal with it. If you asked me a couple months ago if I could change anything in my life what would it be I probably would have said that I'd like more time to myself. At this stage in my children's lives I rarely have a moment to go pee by myself. But now, living in an unfamiliar area, without the daily support of our friends and family I would be happy if I could find an activity where the kids could be happy and maybe meet a friend or two. In time I will learn to embrace change, find light when faced with uncertainty and become the artist of my own life. I will try to move in step with intuitive guidance finding and making a new path rather than going down the one I've been down many times before. It will certainly be an adventure.
xo- neisha
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